With college being one of the major things on my mind, i cant help but think of what college will be like. Can't wait til next year, and become responsible for myself. Finally begin what we've been working at for 12 years. From what people have said, it should be awesome. But something in the back of my head keeps telling me that I don't want to go to college, or even grow up.
This last summer was spent doing things I enjoyed from my childhood. Playing games like Crash Team Racing and Spyro the Dragonfor the Playstation 1 with my dad and brother. Star wars Battlefront 1 and 2 and Ratchet and Clank: Deadlocked for PS2. Goofing off at my grandparents house. Just did what i used to do when I was a kid. Nostalgia was a major thing that took over my summer.
I know i have to grow up and move on, but being considered and adult and having to take full responsibility seems stressful to me. Im still very excited to move on, but one small part of me doesn't want me to.Why do we not want to grow up?
i completely understand the feeling. When i got sick about a week ago, it's just so nice to feel someone care for you and I think - what will happen when I'm in college? Not to mention my parents still make me dinner and pay for my everything (pretty much). I'm not sure i'm ready to handle college, and yet it's something we all yearn for because if we didn't, we'd never move out and our entire family would just keep expanding in one house. How awkward!
ReplyDeleteNostalgia: it literally comes from a word meaning "pain from an old
ReplyDeletewound". It's hard to move on from your childhood activities. I
sometimes play old PS2 games for the heck of it, and even read
through my old drawings I made as a kid simply so I can relive an
experience. We never have to leave these things behind
permanently, but we can adapt them into our lives as we grow up.
Just as a line from "Peanuts" sums up:
Lucy: "Linus, what will you do with that silly old blanket when you
grow up?"
Linus: "Maybe I'll make it into a sport coat!"
I think that everyone at heart is still a child no matter how old they get. It's fun and comfortable. My dad still acts like a child and he's over 50. It's a natural thing to not want to grow up. I think that the scariest part about growing up is being on your own.
ReplyDeletePersonally I will probably never fully grow up, I am too immature to do so. I feel that if people truly grow up they will lose so many things behind and morals that sometimes staying partially young is the best thing for people. If you grow up too fast you will lose some things that are not losing. Just conclusion from my scattered thoughts, don't fully grow up, keep the inner kid inside that is what makes people interesting.
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